Early Morning Habit

Good morning, every one on earth.

It’s 3 am in the morning now, Western Indonesia Time (GMT+7). 7 July 2015, I’m home.

I have this strange habit to wake up at this hour, and it’s quite often. I don’t know how or why, but every 2 or 3 am in the morning, my head started to think about how my life has been for several days. Now I don’t really have words in my head, to write down some pretty lines, beautiful story or so, but I just wanna tell you about this habit I’ve been having for years of my life. Hello people, I just woke up and I can hardly even find my consciousness.

My mom and dad once told me a story about it. Even when I was a mere tiny infant, I used to woke up in the very early morning. They said, I cried at this hour not knowing why. At this one time there’s one chance that a burglar broke into our small grocery store and stole some goods. I cried oddly out loud that time, but my mom and dad wasn’t take that as a bad omen. Only the next morning that they found out we were robbed. My loud cry was a sign actually, they mentioned it was my deep and strong intuition as a baby that I was trying to tell them something bad was ongoing. Since then, my mom and dad always take me as a boy with a strong intuition.

This habit stays on me, and I experienced this myself when I was young. As an elementary student preparing for his final exam, at the age of 12 I will always wake up early to study. Usually at 1 or 2 am in the morning, barely anybody find out about this little habit but my mom. It continued until the time when I was in junior high. I always woke up early, and I turned my TV on watching anything available at that particular hour when nobody is awake. So I won’t be so surprised, I found many weird shows on TV. That silly quiz, old movies, orchestra plays, sometimes also religious lectures. I pick whatever available on TV, and switching from one channel to another. During exams, I took this time of a day to study. I woke up early then open my books, in my own room without nobody knowing of this habit. After an exam, I’ll go home and take a nap to balance my life cycle.

Other than that, my school from junior to senior high is kinda far away from home. It took a 15 minutes trip by bus (in case there’s no traffic jam at that particularly busy hour), drop by at bus stop and then 10 minutes walk to my school. So if there’s any early classes at 6 am, especially because those two school are quite discipline and strict, I will have to be at school even much earlier than most students of my age. My mom oftentimes was not yet awake, so I prepare every single thing for myself.

But there are always thoughts I had at this hour. I think about many things in my life, my academic life, my emotional problems, my social life, many others. Precisely, I contemplate at this hour. Sometimes I automatically wake up as if somebody shake my body that I’m about to fall from my bed. Or sometimes, I could just pull up my strength and spirit to be awake. Then I stop there laying on my bed, with my eyes wide open staring at the ceiling. But my mind was wandering away somewhere else, thinking bout my life.

You know what, this time of the day that makes me feel calm. Makes me sleepy at the end of the day, yes, but it makes me feel much better for an entire day. So I’m gonna go with this habit. :)