- Quote about Friendship
I
capture this scene on my profile on blackberry messenger. I was
thinking about my friendship, those people around me that I believe are
my closest companies. I was thinking about Umam, Via, and many others.
Ah,
I remember now. It happened when that day, I was hanging out all day
with them. Yes, the whole day! It started when Via told me that she will
go to Ciputra, a widely famous mall in town right in the downtown
Semarang and and she asked me to come over, add some more fun she said.
Via is a Filipino living in Semarang and works as a teacher in a private
school in uptown Semarang. She was with Noah, another very dear lovely
half-Malaysian living in Semarang, my classmate. They were out looking
for something, Via said. But then again, it's been quite sometimes that I
don't hang out and play around with them, so I decided to join them.
While
I was chatting with them on the phone, another chat also did happen
actually. I was chatting out with Umam and Rid, those two people I've
been hanging out with lately. Umam is my very best-bestest friend, he
lives very near from my boarding house in Sampangan. I share almost
every single important, even sometimes not important stories of my life
to him. And Rid is a friend of Umam, coming from Solo to have some
business in Semarang, or what, and honestly I don't really know much
about him but he's fun, so I just said, drop in. They're both fun
anyway.
The story goes, I agreed to join Via to Ciputra and I met
her in the Robinson. As usual, we three are sorority-fraternity siblings
having brother-sister relationship so we share our stories that takes
up our emotion, something fun, something annoying, something glittery,
tiring, and many others. Via is so kind and generous and Noah is
cheerful from the outside but very mature. During our chat, Umam and Rid
told me that they want to join, I don't exactly know what was going on
between those two, who asked who to do this, but I think that's okay,
even though I do have a little doubt.
I was worried at first,
because they have my stories which each of them have different stories.
If they share my stories each other, they will know me much better. I
know that's good, but that would also include obnoxious stories about
me, added with their own perceptions and seasoning as gossip works. I
shared Umam about A stories, while I told Via about B stories. Those two
stories or many other stories I shared them are oftentimes different
and are not related to one another. So if they share each other about my
stories, it would be like booooom, they will know me very well. What
makes me worried is that, I still want to create an image of how I want
people to look and see me as. I worried if they talked about me, they
will talk bad things, my bad habits, or ugly rumors. I know I AM a jerk,
but even a jerk doesn't want people to talk about them behind their
back, since jerks still have feelings. :p
But then I let them
come. I keep my nervous bladder on my own, and behave like it was
something normal for me. We were waiting quite sometimes, probably an
hour until they finally come. Since Via and Noah are both very welcome
to new friends, and open-minded, it's easy for them to have connection
to a new friend. Umam was a bit shy that time, also because he doesn;t
speak much English but basic stuff. Rid is an English teacher and he's
very chatty so it would be easy for him to communicate with Via and Noah
properly.
I don't want to create a gap and feeling awkward like a
broken bridge between them so I tried to connect them more by telling
them about each other. I told Via and Noah that Umam is a good singer
and also a face-reader. They got very interested to it! So I let Umam
read their characteristics and the connections was built. We started to
chat unstoppably, about crazy stuff, even private stuff. We talked about
serious things also like our worrisome regarding the quality of air
service because of the missing flight in Java Sea lately.
Then the
conversation moved and they talked about me. Yes, my personal stories,
they publicly shared it and talked about it right in front of me, under
my existence. I don't know if they considered my existence or not but
they did it. Weird thing is, I don't mind and I don't feel
uncomfortable. That helped me to understand myself better. Besides that,
the way that they talked about me shows me that they're okay with my
negative side. Even they see those ugly side of me as an opportunity to
fill in my weakness, and complete me. So that I can work perfectly as a
decent human being.
Our conversation went by and I realized that
they're all basically just like me, so it's easy for them to connect. I
love them so much and they tend to be alike, and that's the reason why
they can be really fond regardless of the very short time they know each
other. We laughed, we talked crazy and stupid stuffs. Then we moved
along till late that night. It was so fun.
What I realized then,
is that I shouldn't have been worried about them getting closer. The
more that they get closer, the more they know me, the more that they
know my weaknesses. Instead of avoiding me, they love me for whatever my
mistakes, my bad habits, my clumsiness are. They don't care about that
anymore, and that what makes me think that I should've feel embarrassed
that I worried. Even now I know myself much better because I do realize
now, because of this, that they love me just the way I am. They are
important people of my life, and they don't mind, because they know they
matter for me.
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